Irregular Student

Back in 2010, the first time I enrolled in the state university in our area but I only completed a semester, after that I started working in a BPO company to support our household.

Back then I was a regular student but our relationship with the irregular students are good and we are on friendly terms. We sometimes eat together, we call them to hangout if they have time. We made sure they don’t feel awkward if the situation needs a grouping. The time back then was more warm and welcoming than today.

After more than 6 years of working, I decided to continue and pursue studying because the government is implementing k12, means that in the future, people have to go back to grade 11 and 12 and have a certificate from senior high before entering college. I decided to study now. Since I have long decided to change course from computer science to education, I enrolled most of my subjects with the educ students. I truely regretted that decision, I never felt so alone and unwelcomed. We are almost 30 in class and I can only hangout with one person, she, like me is an irregular student too. 

It’s a block section what do you expect. This I understand, they’ve been together since last semester of course they have a bond. But the frustrating part was, whenever our professor gives an unexpected activity or announcement, we the irregular students were never informed. I gave my number to two of my classmates there, we met last Tuesday for Physical Education class and they didn’t bother telling us that there has been a change of schedule for the saturday NSTP. It turn out that we don’t have a class last Saturday and they didn’t bother to tell me that. 

I went there alone, waited for an hour, send them a message but no one replied. I just went home after an hour of waiting. This is the reason why I have trust issues, why I distance myself to people. I thought we are finally on good terms because last week they were all smiles and sometimes have a small talk. But, noooo! It was just a small pretense because we have a graded group dance and they need the cooperation of everyone. 

I’m so stupid. In the end they are nothing but outsiders. They are the kind of people I don’t want to be acquainted. I’m having a second thought on pursuing education or just change to psychology. I don’t want to be with them anymore. I’d rather be in a room full of strangers than be with a black bellied class.

Books, books…more books

I wasn’t really a bookworm to begin with, but right now, I can’t stop reading! 

I like reading books since I was a child, children’s books, pocket books and literature books. I have wattpad on my phone with a lot of books in my virtual space, different genre and such. Most of the stories I’ve read before was the classic rom-com where the lead characters would hate each other the at some point they will reconcile and slowly becomes lovey-dovey somewhere in the middle then a storm is brewing making the lead characters hate each other again or one of them has to leave the other misunderstanding the situation thinking it would be best for the both parties and somewhere near the ending they cleared the misunderstanding and becomes lovey-dovey again. It’s the typical story line in most of the stories written by aspiring writers. Since they are still young, imagination is the only limit. Those young hot blooded youths, filled with inspiration and determination makes a silent reader like me happy. 

Some of the english novels that I really like are The Maximum Ride Series by James Patterson. 

It’s about five kids being experimented in the name of science resulting them to have 98% human and 2% avian. And yes, they have wings and they are mutating, developing some extraordinary skills like hiding your presence, unbelievable eyesight, attracting metals with tha wave of her hand. A blind that can cook and a 6 year old bomb expert. I love how he descibe fang, a long black hair youth with black feathered wings and usually quiet. I am quite attracted to guys with long hair and a little silent on the outside like the world doesn’t have anything to do with him. 

I love the children’s book The View from Saturday. It’s light and relaxing since it doesn’t have the drama so I can say it’s a chill book. 

An everyday life of four  4th grade students pulled by fate to be together, four different stories of an ordinary kids that tried to make a change and how they inspire and help the people around them. How they give their teacher Mrs. Olsen (if that’s their teacher’s name I can’t remember) a lift when she feels she hit rock bottom after being bullied by students because she is crippled. I totally recommend you to try and read this, I promise it’s worthwhile.

The other books that I keep reading over and over are the books mentioned above, Nancy Drew series, Behind the Attic Door, Fire and Ice and now, chinese novels.

My friend recommended (actually she urged us) to read a light chinese novel “Gu Fang Bu Zi Shang” or A lonesome flower waiting to be appreciated. Set in the ancient china, a little like Romeo and Juliet ( since they came from each other’s enemy country). I really don’t like stories where the girl is a damsel in distress waiting for her knight and shinning armor, physically weak and fragile (ugh! Women are not that powerless). But, in this novel, Miss Bai Pingting, the main character is not someone you should trifle with. She may be physically weak but her brain is better than two heads. She is the only female military advisor in the world where men rules, where the strong survive and the weak submit. It’s love story and the stories of the supporting characters are quite cute especially her nurse Zuiji and fanlong who received an order to assassinate Bai Pingting but mistaken Zuiji as Ms. Bai because of the golden buyao. It’s the first chinese story that I’ve ever read and now I can’t stop reading chinese novel.

I’ve learned a lot from reading chinese novel like wangye, bengong, chenqie, zhen, jiejie, meimei, wulong, buyao, qin, gu qin, feng, and other chinese term that I usually see in a chinese novel I’m reading. Most of it are reincarnation, killed or died in the modern world the suddenly woke up in a different era and dimention. Some light novels are mixed with fantasy and some are just martial arts and almost all of the stories I am reading is the previous owner of the body are a trash or a good for nothing before the soul replacement and suddenly they become a genius and a peerless beauty with great cultivation and power.

Since it is historical and about soul switch it is bound to be draggy. Some light novels are 3000+ chapters, some are 8000+ chapters and still on going. It’s like an adventure where you will see how the main characters cultivate and became the strongest or reaching the pinnacle of god stage. You are part of their journey how they grow and gets stronger. Usually it’s full of revenge and deceit and overflowing with martial arts. What attracts me the most is when the female lead is dense and the male lead is being misunderstood by the female lead. I love how they feel the frustration of the male lead when they tried to express their love.

I know I drag wrote too much and it’s been a long post. It’s just that I don’t have anyone to talk to about this. My friends are working and busy and my classmates are not interested in reading chinese novel and I’m itching for someone to have a chit chat about chinese and japanese novel. Anyway thanks for stopping by πŸ™‚

My First Time as an ESL Educator in Camp

In 2015, while I was looking for a job, I stumbled upon a job opening as an ESL teacher when browsing in My sister and I decided to try and send in our resume. After a week, we received a response inviting us for an interview. We passed the interview and accepted the job. The winter camp will run for four weeks

November of 2015 we went to Brgy. Capipisa, Tanza, Cavite for the orientation and a week of training. Introducing the Korean culture especially their studying habit. I can say that I’m so thankful that I was born and raised here in the Philippines. The students in Korea have it tough, they have a ranking system and after school they went to academies that teaches specific subject. Sometimes they went home at 2am and wake up at 6am to prepare, then at 7 am they go to school. They have to prepare for the upcoming “Suneung” (수λŠ₯). The better score they get the better university they can apply. The actual camp starts on January of 2016. They profiled me to the newly acquired client which is the scholars of the province of Geumsan ( κΈˆμ‚°) while my sister was picked for the rich kids in Avalon. We were both in four weeks program that started in January 2016

the people wearing violets are for Geumsan, orange shirts are for four weeks Avalon and the yellow are for 8 weeks Avalon.

My sister and I decided to be a parent teacher, it means that you can stay with the Korean kiddos in the hotel plus an additional allowance. We, the Geumsan teachers instantly became engineers, carpenters and designers; we sew the curtains too.

During the welcoming party, it is also when they assign which students will be under our care. I got 3 beautiful elementary school students at room 228.

From left to right: Nicole (Lee Hyun Ah), Ely (Seo Ye Jin), Terry (Kim Na Yeon)

I admit it’s hard because they are still on the yellow level and we hardly understand each other too due to language barrier. The program categorizes the students as red level: zero english, yellow level: little english (They can understand a little but cannot speak english), green level: can speak and write english but cannot express well, purple level: can speak and write just need practice and the highest level, the brown level: conversant and can use proper english.

Tanza Oasis Hotel is where we stayed during the camp. The whole Geumsan group occupied 90% of the right wing of the second floor while the whole third floor was beig occupied by Avalon 4 weeks and 8 weeks.

We are not the usual classroom setting because we have a one-on-one class and group classes with maximum of four students. My subjects are Literature (Purple: Les Miserable book), Speaking class (Purple and Brown level), Reading Class (Purple level, 4 students) and Theme class (Brown Level). Basically for literature, they just have to read and finish the book in four weeks, what I did was, after every chapter, I would ask them what did they understand and narrates the chapter again with a little acting and sound effects which they love. For Speaking class, they read a paragraph, answer the questions and free talk. They just have to tell a story about a specific topic. During speaking class, I learned that my students loved spring more than winter because it’s a cool season and they have a spring vacation right after their winter vacation.

Sunday is their travel day. They went to Pagsanjan falls, Canyon cove, Enchanted Kingdom and Mall of Asia.

We were already told by our senior teachers that korean kids love choco mucho but during their trip to mall of asia, it still surprised me to see them emptying the shelves for choco mucho. They bought boxes of it almost filling their shopping cart.FB_IMG_1489487481994

Minions, unite!
Me playing rock-paper-scissor with Harry. I won!
From left to right: Teacher Anjo, Steve, Teacher Peter, Jann, and Teacher Nikko
Taho anyone?

Every Monday is our Theme day. We have a little competition and was instructed to make a morning exercise but only the students are allowed to make the steps.

They created a pretty fun steps to the tune of Payphone by Maroon 5

We use Upside Down by A*Teens. We didn’t get any special prize but we enjoyed making it.

We spend our free time taking pictures or just staying outside our hotel room and chat. Every afternoon between 1-2pm is where their club activities are being held. We have chess club, dance club, singing club, and basketball club. during this period, Parent teachers can take a rest since the other not parent teachers take over the activities. At night, between 6-9pm, Korean staffs are incharge for their night recreational activities so we have a lot of free time.

Time passes by real quick when you’re having fun. The four weeks that seems to be a long time suddenly end in a blink of an eye. Yes, we were happy and sad at the same time. Happy because we can finally go home; sad because we have to be separated with our newly acquired friends. It’s one of the highlights of my life, the experience that I will never forget. I promised myself that I will go back someday, with TESOL and IELTS certificate in hand ready to share my knowledge to others.

Goodbye! Until next time!

Change and Adapt

I wish I could have a one on one talk with my professor. It’s easy to say “go socialize with your classmates. You should take the initiative since you are the irregular student”. I know what she means but for me, it’s really hard to “go socialize” with a group of complete strangers. They are my classmates in physical education class but I feel like a fish out of water, I feel so alien when I’m with them. They probably been together since last semester so they have a bond as a group, a very large group. I am not really comfortable being surrounded by a lot of people and yes, I consider myself as an introvert. Right after I introduce myself in front of the class, my professor suddenly said that it’s ok to be a bitch and have an attitude as long as they can pass the practical and written examination. And I was like, did she just judged me? I was convincing myself that she meant that for everyone and not just me but I can’t help myself for thinking so. I can’t just change myself and adjust in a very short period of time. I need a lot of preparation, emotionally and mentally. They probably calling me snob but really I’m not. I feel like, I have to explain myself to everyone who doesn’t know me. I have a lot of insecurities and fear like most people but I don’t really know how to handle it.

I wish I could tell her that there are different types of people, introverts and extroverts and she cannot generalise all her students. I can change and adapt to new environment and situation but in my own pace. Don’t rush me, tell me in advance so that I  can prepare myself, emotionally and mentally.


I created this account just to follow some authors and their web novel. But I wanted to learn express myself more just to have an outlet of my frustrations. Just to give you a heads up, it might be a negative feeling or depressing, silly thoughts and anything under the sun (or just me ranting about my day).